Dear Cedric,

I was lying in bed, unable to sleep. So I thought of all the possible housechores that I could do tomorrow. Packing up the wardrobe, daddy's bedside table, maybe move some of the things from the baby room to the store area. Then I thought of the baby toys in the store. Those that Daddy and I had carefully chosen from Uncle Damien's lot and moved over here so that you could play with them when you got a bit older.

Suddenly, I felt sad. Not wee bit sad, but quite very sad. So sad I almost was going to cry. I think you would have really liked the toys we picked for you.

"The Stars Shine In The Sky Tonight" for you, my baby dear.

December was a lonely month. It was the month we lost you.

We both sung Happy Birthday to you on 21st July 2006. You were meant to be here. In our arms. Mummy felt a presence in the home. Was it you? Was it Jamie?

I still don't know why you were taken from us, but I believe in God. I do now. And I think where you are, you should be in the good hands of the Lord and maybe Grandmama too. =)

Mummy loves you. And I'm very sure Daddy does too.
I still miss you. ='(