Jamie,

I didn't know, or maybe I just forgot, that at 11 weeks and 2 days, you already had all four limbs and a cute little head.
You were almost complete, like a baby ready to enter the world.
Unfortunately we weren't ready for you.

I'm sorry. I know I've said this a million times at least, but I really really wish you were here. That we had never made that decision. But what's done is done, and all I can say is sorry and that Daddy and I will work hard to have a baby again. And we would be really happy if it was to be you.

Next time, I'll hold those little hands and kiss that little forehead, and I'll tell you in person, with you cradled in my arms, how much I love you.
It will happen. It will.